In the world where pursuit of (self) happiness conquers all
Everything would seems okAs long as you are happy I'm happy
Whatever floats your boats
our pursuit of happiness isn't all what imagined to be?
by nature of consciousness we are made to struggle more than to be happy?
And in struggling
We may achieve true peace
Does that sound too negative to you?
It actually sounds enlightening to me
a0z0ra @ 1:18 AM  |
Right now everyone is talking about Homosexuality; how society should accept their choice of sexuality as normal.
Next, come Childfree - a movement of parenthood by choice. It is a close relative to Abortion (gasp!) or should I say motherhood by choice.
Choice, choice, choice. Aaah, humans and their hard-earned freedom. Future will be very interesting if this movement becomes popular. It could happened.
After all, to this day I don't have natural ability to like children. I know several people that feel the same way. It would have been easy for me to sway to this side.
However, due to my Catholic faith, I know I ought to have children someday. It is a commandment and, um, I think the Church teaches that it brings Him glory. Ok God, whatever makes you happy, I'm happy too.
To tell you the truth, today I wasn't so afraid of child-bearing anymore. I found it very interesting. Even though I still need to bring myself to like children, it wasn't as difficult as several years ago. Maybe because my clock is ticking, the motherhood hormones is kicking, hm.
Fun thought: I kinda like the idea of having some mini-people who are dependent on you. You can mold, shape and brainwashed them. Evil grin. Uh-oh, will I be a good mother?
a0z0ra @ 12:37 AM  |
Here's a million dollar question to a0z0ra:
Q: In all honesty, knowing that you will spend eternity in Purgatory if you lie, were you in a relationship before you met your fiancee?
and the answer is....
No, I wasn't.
I kept the breakup hidden for quite long, only few closest friends know about it. It was the same weekend my car was hit by the drunken driver. Few weekends later, since I don't have a decent running car, I joined 2 of my friends to go to the Church. Interestingly enough, at that time my current fiancee was in the same mass. He asked me my number which I gave him (hey, I was single). But I ignored his call because I wasn't ready.
Not until few weeks later we met again at the same Church & same mass time. This time, he also asked me out for dinner. This time I decided to give it a try.
I realize later that covering the breakup wasn't a wise move, but I'm okay taking the blame (& false rumors) for it.
After all, it was my fault in the 1st place: I wasn't clear enough about what I truly want from a relationship & I waited for too long to make decision. It ended up hurting both of us.
a0z0ra @ 1:15 PM  |
- Doin a cowboy-style coding project for Sony Professional
- Thought of doing a side business, currently researching
- Room is a holy mess, Batman!- I am engaged!
- Thus getting busier
- Seriously busy
- Plus I'm thinking of documenting my wedding preparation in a blog w/ him
- I don't know if I have time to do that
- I could get busier...
a0z0ra @ 12:49 AM  |