Despite everything that they have said, He succeed beyond recognition
But then His relatives said
"Who is this guy? Isn't he the son of Mary & Joseph? The brother of James & Jacob?"
They remembered Him from the old days. How He used to live for 30 years. And they looked down upon His humble, humble family.
So they refused Him.
That is an interesting story of Jesus being rejected in his hometown.
I have a question. What will happen if I go back to Indonesia?
Indonesia is a land of status. Status is attained by childhood, the family that you were born into. I was born from an OK family and hang out with people who took buses and metrominis
With God's grace, my family was capable of sending both me & my sister to US. Sudden change of environment.
My sister adapted successfully. She is always the flexible one of the family. Her easy going attitude makes her popular among all people, including those who were born of status.
Me? I adapted reluctantly. I missed my good old days where I can just hang in the background, not causing too much noise. Good ole' wallflower girl.
Back in my old days, I was used to dress so casual. Pure Blue Jeans & Oblong T-Shirts (TM). Slengean
Cannot do that here.
Those who were sent to study in US happened to have really good families & financial situation. They were raised in famous elite neighborhood such as Kelapa Gading, Pluit, Taman Kebon Jeruk
, etc. Some even have swimming pools in their homes. Their families would happen to own big factories or government contractors. Others have doctors, professors, architects, bank director as their parents.
Me? I was raised in Glodok (the China town). Not so much of an elite neighborhood. When the riot broke in 1998, I couldn't go home. I have to spent my night in Tebet, sheltered by my Muslim friend.
In some circle they would display their status using cars & bags. Watch out, don't mess with me, I have power and you know you need me someday.
You can't just say screw that and move on with your live. You have to adapt all you can. Try to be humble & don't make too much noise. Otherwise you'll end up alone.
While in US you can easily talk to friends who you'll classify "too high" back in Indonesia, I don't know if that casual relationship would still exist once you go back. No doubt, they may try hard to be friendly, but we both know they live a completely different lifestyle than what I'd like. So what to do?
I'd love to learn more from these "high-status" people, but sometimes it is very stressful for me to interact with them. There's a huge gap that I don't really understand. I feel like I don't deserve the relationship. They come from a very privilege background, while I'm just a humble girl with good fortune.
However, I know well that if I continue to keep still and not going "upward", I would have no use and all that expensive investment would go to waste. I can't keep my inferiority much longer. I have to look up and climb the stairs. It is easy to say, very hard to do. Should I start buying those status bags to blend in?
Inside my heart, I'm still that simple, wallflower girl. I looked upon those people as untouchables. I wonder why that is. Supposedly, we are all humans with the same status underneath all that. In reality, I feel that a lot of people in Indonesia cannot readily adapt the world without status.
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