If u don't have exceptionally pretty face or figure, and u r a girl & a teenager, u know what that means: separation from the popular clique and being labelled average. No matter what accomplishment u achieve u'r value is still below those who are gifted by being born with great DNA structure. AS a teenager this is a circumstance that u cant choose. U have to keep that experience for the rest of your life.
I once like this guy in middle school (my high school is an all-girl school *sob) because he's funny. He's not cute, DEFINITELY not smart, he's just an average. Being a damn image-conscious that he was, he only wanted to have a popular girlfriend. He told me to be "gaul" - in other words - to b in da clique. I feel depressed that he told me so. I tried & tried to fit in, but u know it's just so hard if u have a mindset like me. He finally gave in waiting and hooked up with my cute friend. Thus there goes my stupid monkey love.
Now having a bit grown up, I looked back into those years with a smirk in my face. Those jocks & averages now have the same opportunities to compete. Now it's all about the skills; brain, creativity, communication, discipline & courage. By theory I can look them up in the same level but there is a lil teen spirit in me that still regards some of them as jocks & unapproachable creatures. The teen in me jump up with joy everytime those "jocks" greet me. A bit stupid eh? (Yes, there is a bit of me too that resent those jocks because they once ignored me & made my teen life a living hell. A tiny bit though.)
a0z0ra @ 11:01 AM  |