I don't know where did the courage come from
What I remember is when I said it, I feel like dreaming a good but very3x sad dream
Then He gave me literally a BANG! after I did it
Consequences of my sin or a sign from the Devil that the war is on?
Bah only Him knows. What I can do is doing what I can do best (& stop procrastinating)
And then I hear another BOOM!
Leh, so far I can take it
But I looked up in the sky and start wondering why He thought I can get through this
Guess I dont have a choice but believe in Him, do I?
Am I Evil? Guess only Him knows.
People can judge me whatever they want yet I shouldn't be afraid of them
Because I don't really know myself
I trust HIM to make the ultimate judgement
This I know:
Aside from all that
I can hear a soft jazz playing in the background
I can feel the peace inside my heart
Knowing full well that I can finally make that wise decision for both of us
in which I've always been afraid to do it
I don't wanna live in fear anymore
Little by little I'll get through the awkwardness
and start living life consciously and taking chances
Mistakes will be made, hell yea there will be plenty of them
Guess what, I wont be afraid of making mistakes
I believe in myself that I'm capable of thinking things throughly before I act
and if that still fails, I will look Him up in the sky and give Him the "Why" look
after that if there's a lesson I gotta learn, then I'll learn
a0z0ra @ 9:19 AM  |