Hobi berkhayal ttg hal2 abstrak is a childish behavior. Artinya kau melayang.
Kalo sudah siap dengan hal2 real is a grown-up behavior. Artinya kau membumi.
I'm still a child who loves theories that do not make sense for some people. I'm still learning how to grow up, prepare myself not with abstract things, but with real things.
What is real?
I don't know. Marriage probably? Having kids? Making money? Taking care of your parents? Relationships with your friends and foes?
What is abstract?
I also don't know. Speaking politics? Nationalism? Heroism? Conversation about religions?
"Sudah saatnya jatuh ke bumi."
People said that I have done the right thing, yet I feel regret.
People said that I am in the right track, yet I feel lost.
I am trying to be real, but I don't like it.
Yet I have assumption if it is good for me, even if I hate it, I should do it.
Then I did it. I did all of the things that's right. Graduating. Get a job. Be religious. Prepare for marriage.
Somebody taught me that crying is childish, so I stopped crying.
Yet now that I think crying is wrong, I feel lifeless.
a0z0ra @ 2:43 PM  |