Nama:Ask me! a0z0ra[at]gmail.com Suku: Tiong Hoa Agama: Kristen Katolik Ras: Mongol Adat-Istiadat: ikut orang tua Hobi: denger musik, baca macem2, nulis macem2, nongkrong
bareng temen, mendalami iman Kristiani. Harusnya: pulang Indo, nulis macem2, kerja wartawan budaya,
bina keluarga sejahtera, ikutan nongkrong bareng Romo Sandyawan
dkk, ikut2 politik buat angkat derajat orang Tiong Hoa dalam hukum. Ternyata: terdampar di San Diego CA USA, hedon dan hedon dan
hedon... Jadinya: merenungi hidup segan mati tak hendak dengan nulis2
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Guys, if you use twitter, I recently updated mine regularly. The link is http://twitter.com/a0z0ra. I also list my recent twitters on right sidebar of this blog.
Glimpse about Twitter - it's like simple news broadcast to all your friends.. and you can choose to receive it via IM or SMS. It has been around for a while, but recently it really goes mainstream. Try it!
You know what we should do to corruptors in Indonesia?
Have 1 island in Indonesia with strict military law. Or even strict shariah law, it doesn't matter. As long as punishments are severe and thoroughly executed.
Ship all the corruptors & their family to this island. Forbid them to enter their hometown forever. It's humane & possible, right?
Music of the Night (Michael Crawford - Webber's Phantom of the Opera)
Nighttime sharpens, heightens each sensation Darkness stirs and wakes imagination Silently the senses abandon their defenses Helpless to resist the notes i write For I compose the music of the night (music)
Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendour Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender Hearing is believing Music is deceiving Hard as lightning, soft as candle light Dare you trust the music of the night.. Close your eyes for your eyes will only tell the truth And the truth isn't what you want to see In the dark it is easy to pretend.. That the truth is what it ought to be...
Softly, deftly, music shall caress you Hear it, feel it, secretly possess you Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind In this darkness which you know you cannot fight The darkness of the music of the night
Close your eyes start a journey through a strange, new world Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before Close your eyes and let music set you free Only then can you belong to me
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication Touch me, trust me, savour each sensation Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in To the power of the music that I write The power of the music of the night
You alone can make my song take flight Help me make the music of the night
These things in life are temporary & given as talents from the Almighty
We cannot boast
We have to help each other with what we have
Not just keeping them to ourselves
Pride is only good if it inspires other people to do better Prestige is meaningless until it is usable for other things
Until then, if we use pride & prestige for our ego only we are like the servant who bury his master's only talent in the ground and give it back to Him, unused
it is the insecurity within us that prevent the gifts from truly multiplying we don't like competitors, we want to knock them down because they are threats to our pride & prestige
But what are they, actually? What is pride? What is prestige?
Right now everyone is talking about Homosexuality; how society should accept their choice of sexuality as normal.
Next, come Childfree - a movement of parenthood by choice. It is a close relative to Abortion (gasp!) or should I say motherhood by choice.
http://www.childfree.net/
Choice, choice, choice. Aaah, humans and their hard-earned freedom. Future will be very interesting if this movement becomes popular. It could happened.
After all, to this day I don't have natural ability to like children. I know several people that feel the same way. It would have been easy for me to sway to this side.
However, due to my Catholic faith, I know I ought to have children someday. It is a commandment and, um, I think the Church teaches that it brings Him glory. Ok God, whatever makes you happy, I'm happy too.
To tell you the truth, today I wasn't so afraid of child-bearing anymore. I found it very interesting. Even though I still need to bring myself to like children, it wasn't as difficult as several years ago. Maybe because my clock is ticking, the motherhood hormones is kicking, hm.
Fun thought: I kinda like the idea of having some mini-people who are dependent on you. You can mold, shape and brainwashed them. Evil grin. Uh-oh, will I be a good mother?
Q: In all honesty, knowing that you will spend eternity in Purgatory if you lie, were you in a relationship before you met your fiancee?
and the answer is....
(drumrolls)
No, I wasn't.
I kept the breakup hidden for quite long, only few closest friends know about it. It was the same weekend my car was hit by the drunken driver. Few weekends later, since I don't have a decent running car, I joined 2 of my friends to go to the Church. Interestingly enough, at that time my current fiancee was in the same mass. He asked me my number which I gave him (hey, I was single). But I ignored his call because I wasn't ready.
Not until few weeks later we met again at the same Church & same mass time. This time, he also asked me out for dinner. This time I decided to give it a try.
I realize later that covering the breakup wasn't a wise move, but I'm okay taking the blame (& false rumors) for it.
After all, it was my fault in the 1st place: I wasn't clear enough about what I truly want from a relationship & I waited for too long to make decision. It ended up hurting both of us.